It's hard to believe it's been almost two years...but before I get to a new blog I will let you know that we are having a little memorial service at the cemetery again this year. Of coarse it will be on May 14th at 5pm. If you need directions or a ride, let me know. I'm not going to call everyone or send out messages and emails, if you want to come .. come .. don't expect an invite, I just don't have the time. I don't hear from many people any more and I quite frankly I'm tired of trying to keep up with everyone and everything. If you need more info, just send me a message, call the house, the cell, IM, email, work, I'm not hard to find.

It's been a rough time, knowing all the graduation parties are coming up, all of Courtney's friends are graduating and moving on with their lives. She wanted to go to college, she wanted to move to New York City and have an apartment with her friends. Now someone else is going to be living out her dreams. I'm not gonna lie and say I'm fine with that...I'm not. I can't help but wonder what she would be like now? What would her senior year have been like? I know life goes on, but damn It's not easy to watch. I guess you would have to be in my shoes to know how that feels. How it feels to think that one day the very people who spoke of Courtney often won't speak of her at all. Is that possible? of coarse it is. I'm not going to go on anymore about my pain .... you couldn't possibly understand it so I'll keep that between me and God.

So onto better things....CRUISIN' FOR COURTNEY III. May 11th at the Conemaugh Township Highschool. I can't tell you how much this event means to us. I mean this event was named for Courtney...and even if people show up and don't know who she is, at some point during the day they probably will. I'm always more than willing to tell anyone and everyone all about her.  Special thanks to Mike Sotosky and his family again this year for pulling it all together. This would never be possible without him. Can you imagine one little girl making such an impression on this man that he is willing to do all of this in her name? We are blessed to have him and his family in our lives.

I'm not gonna say to much more tonight because I am exhausted, my stomach hurts and I have a headache, but I felt I should update this blog a bit. I will try to write more often...just recently it's hard to write without getting to emotional. I don't want anyone to come read these blogs and go away feeling sorry or depressed, thats not my intention. This is my life so I'll take the good with the bad and hope for the best. 



Much Love ~Anita


  
     hold on to the ones 
  who really care, cause 
 in the end they'll be the 
    only ones there.  

 

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